Today..

Today, marks the one week spot for the Hubbys surgery.

Today, I made him go for pre-op all by hisself.

Today, I am not looking forward to the week ahead and the weeks that will follow.

Today, I wonder why everyone always thinks that I am so strong.

Today, I thank others from the bottom of my heart for providing my family the financial aid needed to pay for Hubbys surgery 100%, healthcare for one year, and $20,000.00 in bills that were already accumulated, all paid for by donations to Moffitt Cancer Center in Tampa.

Today, I wish that one day we will be able to help someone else like we have been helped.

Today, my mind wrestles with the thought of my Hubby not being here.

Today, I try to tell myself everything is fine.

Today, I want this surgery to be the last surgery.

Today, I worry.

Today, I hope.

Today, I pray for my Hubby and others.

Oh what a glorious evening, if you're really expecting something glorious then please dont read!

I left the house this evening right around 6pm leaving KC with the hubby for a quick trip to Wal-Mart for some Tide, shaving cream, razor blades, toothpaste, and a handful of Easter goodies. After checking out and spending $48.72 on on 8 items I headed to the car in tears remembering the good 'ole days when I could walk in a store and not worry one second about how much money I was spending. Not today though, today I am saving change, clipping coupons, and adding things in my mind as I buy them not forgetting to add the tax. So with my mind racing about all our finances I pull out of the parking lot headed to spend some more money we really dont have feeding my gas sucker. I had my blinker on to make a right and a car zoomed up behind me and to keep this non driving fool from crashing into me, I hung my right hit the curb and my tire blew out on the sidewall which I already knew was not fixable. Lovely! Just great, and these tires are about $200 a piece so I knew this was going to be fun. I tried calling the hubby for over 30 mins. to no avail, so I called the in-laws and he was there but he was in no way happy and hung up on me. Once he got there it was, I know you were talking on the phone, which I was not, how can you hit a curb like that, why didnt you just let the dumb ass hit you, do you know how much a new tire is gonna cost, were you not paying attention, do you realize this is the 3rd time you've done this, (which was later recanted, it only happened one other time in 2000 when I jumped a huge curb Dukes of Hazzard style in my Celica and in my defense I drove a Z71 truck before that). Anyways, thankfully this all happened at the gas station and minus my precious cargo, but it was still a pain in the keyster. The hubby went back home to get all the necessary tools to put on the spare and instructed me to sit in the car. I was more than happy to sit in the car because I knew we were on the edge of a argument so I patiently waited for the all done signal so I could go back home. Much later in the evening when I was done making supper, that was almost 2 hours late the hubby decided to apologize and say sorry for being so mean. I responded by saying no big deal, I hit that curb on purpose just to make his life a little more crappy today, I did it with intent and forethought just to be able to suck some more money out of our savings which is now non-existent. Im really nice to, right? Grrrrr, is there anything else I can screw up or make worse? The good part is I will only be buying one tire, not four! I think Sneaky Momma jinxed me on the tire deal, so Im totally blaming her for my mishap since I never once laughed while reading about their tire adventure. Click the link to read her tire story, but dont blame me if next week you need a new tire too!

Im baaaack!

I made it back to FL after driving over 12 hours on Sunday. My laptop is still not back from getting fixed so I have been on turtle speed internet and I havent had the patience to post anything. My trip was less than exciting, it was ok but I can think of about 10 other things Id rather been doing but oh well, its over now.

My computer should be back by Friday so I should be back soon.

Wordless Wednesday

Whats making all that racket?

Not Me Monday...thanks to the handy scheduler

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

I did not watch from inside the house with a/c while my hubby slaved away at the blanket of leaves in our front yard. It did not take him and a worker 1 1/2 hours to finally see the dirt bottom where there used to be grass.

There was not a hoax going around that gang members getting initiated were going to kill 3 women at Wal-Mart which closed the local store. I did not get a phone calls from 5 family members telling me not to go in town and certainly not in WalMart. What is wrong with this world??

to go along with the messed up people in this place....

Our friends son did not call his Dad to come pick him up from school on Wed. because the school was on fire. The fire was not started by some dumb kid that did not want to be there. The kid did not light the bathroom toilet paper roll on fire. The fire did not cause the entire school to evacuate, over $3000.00 in damage, and a close a whole section of the school for smoke damage. Dummy!

I did not leave on Sun. for a whole week with KC, Nan, Pop, Mom, & Lola in AL for a week of relaxation and rejuvenation, that week will not probably include manual labor, cooking, cleaning, hollering, bickering, and a more than likely eventual manic episode from my Mom. It never fails!

I did not prepare this Not Me ahead of my departure so Im on top of my game. Im probably not already missing my blog buddies and enjoying reading everyone elses Not Mes.

Not leaving until tomorrow..sigh

We arent leaving until tomorrow ugggh! I was all packed and ready to leave this morning but I learned last night nope, not leaving until Sunday.


In the meantime MY laptop threw in the towel finally and decided it needed a vacation too. So Im off to Best Buy for check in time so my little baby can get some much needed down time, and a gentle massage. Im using my old laptop and this thing is so ancient it wont even recognize my camera USB. I hope the 7 - 10 working day things is true, that way I can pick it up not to long after I come home the next weekend. I prescheduled 2 posts while Im gone and I had 2 more lined up but I cannot upload pics on here. I am taking my camera cord incase I find a computer so I can hopefully add the pictures real quick. Wishful thinking!

Aliceville, AL here we come. HAHA! That sounds like a Jeff Foxworthy joke in the making!

Wordless Wednesday

Any guesses?